Do you believe in prayers ?

I used to have doubts when doing my prayers. A lot of questioning, a lot of doubts, but at the same time I have non stop doing my prayers whenever I am in deep sadness. Maybe I do not like to share it with other of all my sadness, and I only like to show the world `Oh I am happy' , `I am happy go lucky', `Oh ya I am really a happy girl who have a family who love me so much', `Oh yes my family members like to keep me beneath their wings'....and so on... I am too shallow..... This is not ME, I don't feel the happiness within and that's why I have put myself in deep sadness and lead myself to deep depression a few years back.

During my depression, I have very serious mood swing and I have some uncontrollable hands trembling sympthoms, I knew I am in trouble but I still kept it to myself, I continued with my prayers without fail, I knew I can't share my sadness with other, not even my best friends and families, I only can share it with my spiritual guide, The Goddess Of Mercy, or commonly known as `Kuan Yin'

In year 2008, think my depression has lead me to a critical level until my body can't stand this `pain' anymore and started to show me `SOS' signals. I knew I need to do something about myself but I don't know how and I don't what shall I do. That moment of time, I knew my prayers has been heard, my spiritual guide has lead me to the first person who is a Tarot Card Reader, he is the one direct me the way to get out of my darkness world and heading to a brighter world. I used to be a timid person, was always doubt and had lack of self confidence in whatever I do. I don't know how, but I have the courage to get out of the family business and pursue a brand new career in the outside world, and I am glad I made a correct decision, because my spiritual guide has lead me to the second person who has made an impact to my life, she is Li Yen.

Li Yen and I happened to commence work on the same day. I am used to be a shy person and do not like to share or reveal my thoughts to other, especially to those newly made friends. Li Yen she is an exceptional case, I don't know why I can throw out my deepest sadness to her and I knew my secret is safe with her. Later then I know she is a healer and she channel Kuan Yin (My Spiritual Guide) She is a healer in doing NEI (Neuro Emotional Intergration). I have no idea of it is but I gave it a try. After the first session, I started to feel better and I found it help me to release some of my inner emotions which has kept within me for ages. This is the very initial stage of me to know about this New Age Holistic Healing.

Two weeks later, I resigned from this company, and Li Yen left after a month later and started her holistic center at Jalan Bangkung, Bangsar sometime in December. Since then I started to get more and more interested to know more about New Age Holistic Healing and started to attend some workshops.

I don't know it's co incident or it is meant to be, I am really felt blessed since I knew Li Yen. Every time when there is an issue coming up, there are always somebody come to me and giving me advices, and most of them are related to my Spiritual Guide, Kuan Yin. Since young, whenever I have any problems or anything upset, the first thing I did will be sitting in front of the altar and staring at Kuan Yin Picture and start my prayer. The feeling is like a daughter having a very close and intimate conversation with her mother. The feeling is so warm and so relax.

In every minute and every second of my life, I am feeling gratitude and really grateful and thankful, GOD & GODDESS HEAR MY PRAYERS :)